highway

hello world.

in just a bit, (like in 15 minutes.. so i really have no idea why im here typing this right now) i'll be on my way to Penang.. i havent been there for the last few years so im pretty eager to go get some penang food in my belly. and i'll be back again on sunday night.

this means, i'll be missing my highschool class gathering-cum-outing which starts at 6pm.. which wud be now. haih..

man today's been.. really.. everywhere. note to self : jam from bandar utama to taman tun starts around 5pm.

and my stupid right eye's been killing me for the last few hours. on top of that, last minute packing does not rock at all.

i have no idea how much to pack at all.. so im just throwing in whatever i think i'll be wearing and that'll be it.

phew..

i think im glad that today happened.

after all these years.. and everything that's happened.. after all this numbness and totally nothing-ness this whole year.

when something, anything at all.. matters.. it can still matter so much to me. and even so, i still make mistakes.. which i really dont realise at all..

well another thing still hasnt changed.. i still dont think too much before i do anything. that kinda ends up with me saying something wrong.. which i really don't mean in a way.. and not realising it kinda gets to the other end.. in another way..

and i'd really do anything to apologize. or make up for it.

so being the me which doesnt think too much.. i sped off with a totally empty tank of petrol which i realised halfway stuck in a jam which i shud have realised had already started but i didnt until i was actually in it with no way to turn back and then i realised i totally had no idea wher the place i needed to go was then i realised i had no way to let anyone know i was there because the doorbell wasnt working and handphones turn off sometimes so i stood outside realising im actually leaving to penang (like.. in.. no wait.. now) in no time and that made me realise how stupid i can get sometimes.

and i realised how important it is not wanting someone to be mad.

and i now realise im late for my trip.

i hope i realise more next time before anything happens..

i'm sorry. i know im stupid sometimes. im not gona make excuses for it.

so today, i spent most of the time running around doing things i had to do.. and i dont regret going through all of it.

and hey.. i'd do it again if i have to.

cept the part where i screwed up of course.

ming out and off to penang.. cya ppl!