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hello world. whatsup? hows everyone been.

first off, i'd like to wish my good bud brother from another mother khidir, a very happy TWENTIEH OLDDDDD BIRTHDAYYYY hahahahahah

yeah yeah in a bit it's gonna be my turn. u can get me then. haha

here's to a freaking 14 years of friendship dude. and many many more to come.

moving on...

in two days orientation for uni starts and i hope by then i'd be fully recovered. my joints kinda ache now and then and my throat's been killing me.

i think i kinda overdid it the whole last few weeks. painting my room in the apartment, running up and down to subang, gymming with khidir, going around looking for cars, getting uni stuff i need, furniture and yeah u get the idea..

butt burning exercise machine khidir. never again khidir. never again.

having virul fever is a pain. u gota take pills everywhere u go.

i never thought my few weeks before uni started wud be this hectic. or maybe if my parents just let me stay home instead of me moving out, this cud all have been pretty much avoided -_-

come to think of it, i still havent found a good way to get to uni. cow la.

of the late, things have been happening that have really gotten to me. i think in my last few years of living, ive really understood a few phrases of what people nowadays just take for granted and say when they feel like saying them..

and really if i had the choice, i wudnt wanna say any of them. let alone go thru their meanings

a few years back in highschool, i went thru one of the worst time's of my life. it's the kind that really puts ur body on autopilot the minute u sense it's return. something u run away at the sight of. or close ur eyes. 

this time round it made me realise a few things.. at what cost? i have no idea. and really, i wish it'd never happen.

people say this..

the first cut's the deepest.

but i think the second just makes it worse.

but every cloud has it's silver lining. like how shadow's prove the sunshine.

like how bleeding proves that u have a beating heart.

like how holding on means that something means that much.

like how shivering means u need warmth.

like how i think that losing something only shows how much someone needs it.

but no not that. i hope i stay around long enough this time. my health's not doing me any good.

ok time to get back to reality. take care people.

ming out

christmas presents.

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