this feels like years back

hello world,  if you're up reading this at the same hour im typing it, i'll ask you the same question im asking myself.

what in the world are u thinkin? ur gonna regret this in the morning =-=


well okay, for me, i'm more drawn to the fact that my nights are almost always filled with introspection - a cool new word i've learned which basically means : reflecting on one's own thoughts, experiences, being.


kinda like looking into ur soul, if u would like to call it.


and ive found that im happy. not the once in a while high kinda thing. but i really am. in April, i started this thing on facebook where i'd take pictures of something, every day of April this year, just to remember the month i turn 21. kinda something like that thing called "Project 365" or sth like that.

i got so much more out of that than i had hoped for.

doing that made me realize how many things happen in my life that i take for granted or just not notice at all if i wasnt looking hard enough.

• the fact that i had to make myself take pictures led to..
• the fact that i had to consciously look for something to take a picture of which led to..
• me realizing that there's more blessings in my life than i knew which led to..
• me being able to see what i really do have in life which i've missed out on all this while

tonight i type this with conviction. im glad my life is where it is. i love the people i have around me. in these few months ive met people with hearts of gold (and many times, looks to match). i've met people who are honest to goodness, real and hold integrity in their soul. ive been able to perform so much in so many places i just cant believe how it happens, when i could barely find a gig in the past. i've found more and more friends who i can really call friends, not acquaintances.

i feel complete. at peace. content. truly happy. and my whole being is revving up for more

i'll end this post here now. my eyes are rebelling against the screen. but i'll say this here which i said a few months back.

"we only learn the true value of a smile, when we've once lost the ability to possess it"

no, i didnt rip that off from any website. that comes from me.

make my senses come alive

almost like a puzzle piece i've been trying to find

the best part of this is that, i dont have to find the pieces anymore. 

i just follow the instructions, and the picture gets pieced together in front of me

perfectly

gnite world

ming out