give. get.

i dont know whether you'll be reading this. but i just wanted to say thank you.


i guess you're right, ive been missing out on so much all along. and i cant believe i actually have to get used to it. yeah, its pathetic. but thank you, so much.


you've shown me that the darker the night gets, the more the lightning cracks and thunder rumbles, the more each cloud threatens.
its when each star gets brighter and brighter.

i dont deserve the night. i never did in the first place. and im done with it. i was always a stargazer waiting for dawn. and so are you.

so let the night rumble on. when the day breaks, it'll be but a shadow.



what they made me believe about my paranoia, my worries, my trust.. u stood through it. and a month was all it took to deal with it. thank you for your patience and comfort. ive never known it to that extent before. and that was all i needed..

many times i even worry whether you're for real. you've shown me a side of life where i guess ive never been allowed to see. the side of life that has been taken away because of one reason or another.


you know, you're really what the songs talk about. ive never been able to see words fit so well before, and now i can. i guess guardians need their own sometimes dont they? :)




i'm battered, worn out, torn up, used up, rejected, thrown aside, taken for granted and walked on like im nothing. and i'll keep asking you, why me?

and your smile has been an answer that fills all the spaces between. an answer i cannot explain.




i know this post will spark off a few things. but im writing this because i want you to know that im gonna be honest about it. that you dont have to doubt anymore. and today just proved that i should say what i need to. thankyou for today.

you've made me feel safe in my most weakest, depressed, saddest and vulnerable states.. something that i was never allowed to be. something that i was always supposed to be there for.. but when it was my turn, all everyone did was look at me in disgust.

but you stood by this stranger who had nothing to give. and gave all. and i cant understand that. i really cant.




now, i'm gonna get better at being what i am. because you've shown me what things can really be.


this chunk of words wont really catch everything i want it to. because i really cant thank you more than this and you know how much i owe you.



heck, i'm not used to owing.

but like you said, i gotta get used to it.

guess i will...




guess i really will.